Update: Week 31

Im not one of those women who glow when theyre pregnant. I dont wear makeup and the last thing I feel like doing is getting dressed up. My skin flares up after years of not having acne and I suddenly have a double chin. I cannot function properly, I cant do work and I cant think straight. Not when a pounding headache is constantly haunting me all day and all night. I cant walk straight due to the weight on my stomach and on my shoulders. All I want to do is be near a toilet.
I am horrible when Im pregnant. I envy women who can breeze through it whilst achieving whatever goals they have. I cant even go for a shower without breaking down. I am only 3 months and I have 7 months to go. It feels like a decade.
I vomit about 10 times a day and my taste buds have officially died. My neck, back and shoulders feel like theyre about to break into two and despite endless massages, the pain.doesnt.go.away.
I cant carry my own son anymore and I dont even play with him as much. Ofcourse I feel guilty but the nausea keeps me from feeling any emotions but feel like crap.
This has always been a difficult and lonely journey for me.
I dont look beautiful when Im pregnant. Certainly dont feel beautiful. It seriously amazes me how those moms with bouncy hair and flawless style do it. Where's your water retention? How come you dont even look puffy??? How do you have the energy to put on heels???
Life can be pretty unfair, I think to myself sometimes. But then again, after all that suffering, if it means having another baby Adrian I think Id do it all over again. Just allow me to complain everyday while Im at it.